and found that my best friends murderer has been released. How does that make one feel when they read that? How is it suppose to make one feel when they find this out? I have not thought about this for a ling time...Almost seems like a whole lifetime away. The feelings and the emotions have been distorted over the years. Except for the fact that I have a beautiful daughter and I worry that someone will take her opportunity to this beautiful thing called life. I have to go and see her family now. The pain will be re-opened all over again when they see me. They will know why I am there. Its a horrible, dreadful feeling to know the pain they feel in their eyes. The neices and nephews that never got to know their aunt. The mother and father that never got to know the woman their daughter could have become, the sister that was a sisters best friend, the brother that has always protected the sister that will alwyas feel like he could have done something about it. The little brother that looked up to his big sister. The best friend that has never had that kind of family love that sometimes wonders why it happened to this family and not to me; who has no family. I feel tears now...the first I have felt for her in such a long time. What gives him the right to walk free? How does one live with himself after doing such a brutal thing to someone? And more so, how does one go through life and hold their head up and look at people like they DESERVE the right to be free? I feel for her family.

I have spent many years trying to overcome this feeling that somehow, her family was shorted, it maybe should have been me...who would have missed me? I hope you are resting in peace and love Lisa Janine Young...one day I shall see you again outside your visits in my dreams. I still remember the way you smiled and the way we played. Yes, I can say I still miss you...will always wonder what kind of lady you would have become. Wish we had that opportunity to know. You will always be in my heart and a part of my soul! I will go to your family today and hug each one of them. Like it was coming from you. See you one day on the other side! But you can always come and visit me in my dreams. And I pray that Mark is still living in hell for the rest of his days.....